The Unknown is an Adventure
I usually post about events and daily goings-on of my life, but I don't say a lot about how I am feeling or what I'm thinking.
It seems a natural thing to most people. To answer the "how are you doing" question with at least a little more than just "fine, thanks." To immediately tell your frustrations and joys to any stranger who will listen. That's the kind of world we live in now. The kind that shares and shares (and overshares). Now don't get me wrong, I love to share things that make me happy in hopes that others may find joy out of them... but it used to be much harder for me to open up about things that were more personal.
One day I saw a quote and read some scripture that changed all of that.
"Create a life that feels good on the inside, not just one that looks good on the outside."
"So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
From these words came a bit of liberation - a freedom I always had but never realized nor took advantage of. The freedom to be myself without fear of judgement. Without always trying to fit in and meet the status quo. So without further adieu... I'm going to spill the beans on my personal life!
Recently, I was offered a contract job offer for the next four months. There is no guarantee of continuing employment past the contract, but the job is in my field of study and would be a great opportunity to gain experience. Instead of keeping my stable, guaranteed job of four years, I decided to accept this short-term job in hopes that it will benefit me in the long-term.
That was a scary decision for me to make, but honestly I know it's the right thing to do. I prayed about it almost every night and feel no regret about my decision. I start on Monday morning and am nervous because it's new and different, but I know that God says not to worry. To worry is to waste away moments of your life that could be better spent living and loving and being happy. So I'm choosing not to worry and instead "go confidently in the direction of my dreams" as Henry Thoreau would say.
My wonderful and supportive boyfriend (who I currently work with) is so happy for me. He surprised me with balloons, cupcakes, cute lantern lights, and some amazing champagne to celebrate my new endeavor. At work, my bosses catered Chipotle as my "last meal" because I am obsessed with Chipotle. My coworkers also surprised me with a sweet Dr. Seuss card and a Starbucks gift card! Needless to say, I feel incredibly loved and supported in my decision and couldn't be happier!
This weekend my roommate and I have planned to get in as much pool time as possible since this is my first weekend not having to work in quite a while. I also may lighten up the ombre in my hair a bit (don't worry, I'll film it like every other time!) Mostly I will be attempting to relax before my first day at Journal Media Group on Monday!
I hope you all have a great weekend as well! I'll catch you up on my new job after I make it through the first week!